http://khairunnisaandthesevendwarfs.wordpress.com/2010/02/21/these-made-me-weep/#comment-30 Im sorry but i wanna cry to this, can i? okay

I Don't Really Know What and How I Feel Right Now

There you go! It's happening again. Here's to the night where i think alot, can't sleep until everyone in this house are up, getting ready for work or school, while me, just reading through some old conversations, looking at the old pictures, holding at our first $1 change on our first date, yes i still have it, it has been 3 years and it's still safe in my wallet. Sigh, i really don't know what to do. I've been asking myself to move, even asked Yazid to help me. It's hard, it really is. I'll wait. That's what the heart told but my head keeps saying no. But we have to hear what the heart wants not the head right? Sigh i don't know, don't believe me? try doing solat sunat every night for 3 years , it's the heart that matter, not the head. Ya Allah :( Sigh

I have so much to say to you but i really don't see the point of that.
So yeah, I just wanna say Happy birthday to you Siti Khairunnisa Binti Abdul Manan. 

'Happy' birthday..

You know what. Throw me every words you wanna say, tell everyone i am a bad guy. Tell them i treated you like shit. If it makes you happy, go ahead. Hate me!

Make sure you won't look back, don't waste your time on me, don't waste your tears on me. Keep walking, i am not going to chase, i still don't know the reasons why we are not together anymore. Is it my fault? Is it yours? For sure, it's mine, don't you think so? Everything i do right now is bad, for you.

But remember this, keep this in mind, and i want you to know this, from now, i won't stop calling you beautiful, and remember, i will be telling myself that you are still beautiful since the first time we met, you should know that, i won't stop thinking about you until idk.. but no, i won't chase you. What's the point of chasing anymore? Tell me.



Oh, I'll be leaving tomorrow to Philippines. Oh, i yeah, no one fucking care!

I'm Sorry.  Al-Fatihah

Eventually, you'll get cold reply, scolded, and then you keep on telling yourself to stop but you really can't. This probably might be it. I am never gonna win. Never will. So here's something for nothing. YOU FUCKED UP REAL BAD! REALLY BAD HAZMI!

AND OH, I MISS RINI! THIS BULLSHIT WILL NEVER OCCUR IF SHE WAS STILL HERE. I REALLY HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON. SOON ENOUGH! Al-Fatihah.

Is it okay to miss someone that doesn't miss you? Is it okay to miss someone that used to be your everything but now you have nothing because she is happy with someone else? Tell me it is fine,because baby, I REALLY MISS YOU