I want you to be happy without me,wait,you are now. Be happy yeah? and stay beautiful :) #birthdaywish

2 more days til my birthday! And i just wanna go to the place where people can't reach me. Gonna off my phone,BE ALL ALONE,FUCKING THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING,SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT,FUCK EVERYONE,I JUST WANNA BE ALONE ON MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!

At this time of the year,2 years ago,I made a stupid mistake. If i knew it was only a plan to surprise me,things will not be like this. Now,I look back,and I don't want to have my birthday celebrated,in fact,i HATE MY BIRTHDAY!! FUCKING HATE IT! I HATE MYSELF FOR DOING THAT! I HATE MY LIFE! THEY SAY YOUR WORDS ARE DOA,SO YEAH,I HOPE TO DIE ON MY BIRTHDAY! THERE!

OMG! Just got a text from Miss Rahmah!! And Its Says

'Dude,was checking all of your work and your work made me CRY! Seriously,im amazed,never thought a boy like you have a big emotion and huge heart. Sorry i misjudged you,i guess you're not the guy i think you are. Great work kid,Parent's Teachers Meeting will be on the 5th and please,PLEASE tell your mom to meet me,i want to show her your work! Seriously dude,this,your work,im going to read this to all the ND students and tell them how good you are in writing an essay. Just a slightest mistake,and the rest are PERFECT! TO ME YOU JUST MADE YOUR MOM AND YOUR DAD PROUD!'

Alhamdulillah hi'Rabbil Alamin :)))))))))) I just got an early birthday present,i guess. Alhamdulillah :)

Tell me baby,if he's the one please don't throw it all away. Because you deserve someone like him,better than me...

No,nobody's fault here you know. Not your fault! People change! Feelings too but not memories. She found a new man,you found new friends. I know it's not fair for you because she found him while you don't have anyone catching you up. But rilex..Don't rush! Prove yourself you can get what you want,prove her you're the one and prove him you're hers not his! Allah is around you. He is always with you,he will help you! You saw her with him,its not the end of the world! The photos and all that will not stay forever,we grow up,not the pictures. Give yourself a chance,give her a chance,she fail,give her a chance again,over and over again. Like you said Why do we only get 2 chances in love when Allah will give us infinite chances in life? That! Be like that! Be like Nabi Muhammad. Bring and prove her you love her with the name of Allah.

Sigh. Ya Allah. :'(

Sigh..Stop! FUCKING STOP!

Just updated my Facebook with Timeline. Was browsing through the 2010 Timeline's wall and wallpost. Mahn,should've done that. I need to stop. Memories,Just Sweet Memories. I Miss Her. I Miss Everything. Sigh. Goodnight

Almadulillah,Saturday well spent. Surprised the birthday girl,Surprised Amal was surprised! LOL! Just they way we wanted! Went to Riverview after that. YES! Tired but twas Awesome! Alhamdulillah. :)

Amal: Thank you so much for today! I HAD FUN! I LOVE THE BAG YOU GAVE! LAWA,CUTE MACAM ORANG YANG BAGI :) EH KAMBANG! CAKAP KB SAMA YAZIDLAH!! KAMBANG BANAAAR ANAK PLIPPIN BJANGGUT TAPI CUTE ANI!!
Me: HAHAHA. Baie,plippin bjanggut tapi cute jua lah ah? HAHA. He's in KK,lama sudah. HAHAHA. Glad to know that! PAYAH SKILLING EH KAN SURUH TURUN BANDAR MAMA AH! WAIT,NO,NOT MAMA! YOU!
Amal: Kambaaaang! No wonder Mama suruh kbandar,pajal nya. Rupanya~ pandai sudah plan sama mama ni ahh! Cukur karang janggut ah!
Me: hehehe!

What the?! LOL,this is how they roll now. Asal marah,cukur janggut,asal marah cukur janggut! LOL! :-*

Just Me,You and The Almighty,ALLAH!

Hurt? Okay,yes! Good for you! Chill dude,you're moving with Allah now,you made your step. Every step you'll make,you're with Allah. Don't give up! Don't forget your shalats and duas. But let me warn you,don't you ever make her in doubt again,don't hurt her! Let her be the one,but DON'T HURT HER! JANGAN DI BALAS! You deserve to feel what she felt! Even if it takes forever! Remember! If you hurt her,you'll slip this! Show her that you were made by ALLAH for her and no one else. I told you,show her you are better than him. Tell yourself,you are getting better everyday,you are better now,better with the help of the Almighty. If she's the one,fight for it! Fight with the help of Allah. Everything we do,we are with Allah. Remember,Just you,her and the Almighty,Allah.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT

Alhamdulillah,Saturday well spent. Had breakfast with Mama at Empire,Coffee session with Miss Rahmah in the afternoon. Had dinner with the family for Yajid's birthday at Shabulicious,Batu Bersurat. And then went to kiulap to meet Amal,Seriously,at first i thought she's gonna be excited and all to see me,cause i am, but instead kena marahi buuiii hahaha,was supposed to meet her at DST Carnival but i didnt go. hehehe. Watched movie with her and her family,hung out with them,makan,makan,makan! Lampuh ni krg! Hahaha,I just got home! -.-" Tired but Alhamdulillah FUN!

You don't want to get hurt? Stop it then! FUCK YOU for everything,you're a guy,you are supposed to be strong. But look at you?! FUCKING WEAK! You cried infront of us. Dude,enough! I told you to fucking move on. Yes,it's gonna be hard,but every journey starts with every step. As of today,stop your feelings towards her,fuck that feeling,its gonna be gone. She's gone,so you gotta be.

THIS FEELING RIGHT HERE IS FUCKING UP MY MIND! YA ALLAH! HELP ME WITH THIS,HELP ME WITH EVERYTHING. :'(

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YA ALLAH! :'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Things like this,this fucked up mind make me sick. STOP THIS! FUCK! JUST STOP! STOP THINKING ABOUT HER! SHE'S HAPPY NOW! FUCK YOU,HAZMI! FUCK YOU! BOLEH SUDAH MATI MENANGIS NI?!

Im done trying. Im sick of crying everynight and pretend to be fine the next day. You're in a good hand now. He's gonna protect you,he'll make you happy,he's gonna take my place,forever.
Im done,seriously. Got a new line again,will never going back after this. Be Happy Now Girl,Go On!
Gonna move on with Bismillah,here we go! Bismillah

After what happened last year,im not even looking forward for my birthday this year? Forever? Can i not have a birthday? Better yet,can i go back and fix everything? How i wish.. :'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''(