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I've had this weird dreams lately. My dad, Her dad and Nini were in it. I'm not really sure what's the meaning of this. We, Me, Bapa and Nini were on the road, Bapa drove our old car, I remember in that dream, I asked them where were we heading? He smiled and kept quiet, Nini answered me, 'Jumpa kawan bapa mu'. Not long after that we arrived at this big house, huge white house, we were welcomed by cats, kittens, all those cute kitties. A man appeared while holding the hand of a small little girl, about 10 years old i suppose. He shook bapa's hand, they hugged and the man invited us to come inside. As we were inside the house, pictures of the little girl hanging on the wall, every room, everywhere. I asked nini, who's the little girl, 'his beautiful daughter', she said.

I then went to one of the rooms, the room was huge, white paint, but no furniture and yes, again the picture of the man's beautiful daughter, but this time, me, bapa and the father were in it. I don't remember taking a picture with them,I said it loud and all of the sudden the man appeared and he smiled looking at me straight to my eyes, InsyaAllah, one day you will. How is it possible? That question keeps on ringing in my head. The man then, came to me with a white flower, i don't remember what was the flower,then gave it to me. 'Her name is ... and you will be the one who will be there for her, i know you will.'

There,it stops there! I don't even know what this means but if it has a meaning, I'm sorry I can't. If the little girl was her and the man was her dad, I am really sorry, I can't do that anymore. No,not because I stopped loving her, I still do, I still pray for her everynight, Yeah, Lillahitaala I still do that, but I am really sorry, It's not me anymore. Like I said, someone better has replaced me. But yeah, I Miss Her!

Al-Fatihah. I am really sorry, promises aren't made to be broken, but all you need to know is and I promise you, your daughter is safe and she's happy without me.