JUST FOR ONCE I NEED YOU TO BE HONEST. JUST ONCE.

A text to remember

You're on the pedestal waiting for the wheels to move. But guess what? Its never gonna move. She just wants that assurance that you'll always be there for her when she gets lonely. Where is she when you're lonely? Nowhere to be found,you told her your feelings,she didn't,her ego is still there. She doesn't want to be with you but she doesn't want to lose you either. She don't wanna tell. That's ego! Show her it's her lost to lose you,and show her that you're better than him. Its gonna be hard,but if you keep this to yourself and if you think about it,its unfair for you. Go on,move! Move with Bismillah. Move with Allah,move to your journey of happiness. But if you choose to stay,stay with Allah,pray hard,she'll find a way to be with you again. Forget her cousins,its not them that you're gonna be with,its you,both of you. Both of you and Allah,both of you and your happiness,her cousins can hate,but Allah will not.

AND IM LOST! YA ALLAH HELP ME! :'''''''''''''''''''''(

I HAVE TO STOP THIS!
I MUST! YA ALLAH! :'(

You found him,you found love.
I wish i was him. What a lucky guy.

THIS FUCKING CHEST WON'T FUCKING HEAL! ALRIGHT,IT HURTS! PLEASE,STOP SUFFERING ME,DON'T DO THIS..ARRGHHH! YA ALLAH :'(

in all honesty, i’m good at pretending but i must admit, it is not easy for me to do so. it’s very tough. so tough that i might break down and i don’t think i’m ready for people to see the vulnerable me just yet.
actually i don’t want to pretend, i hate not being real. it makes me over-think things and i hate being paranoid. i really wish i could turn back time and undo what i did.
i miss you,there i said it. I Miss You Alot,Khairunnisa Manan. I Really Miss You.

Gonna sleep with this song tonight. On repeat! Gonna fuck myself up! Let the crying begins!

I wonder if you miss me too. Oh well..Ya Allah! Bismillah

So apperantly everyone in the circle have confessed their feelings,Megat confessed his feelings towards Amal,Adek confessed to Piee,Pipah now is madly in love with her new boyfriend,same goes to Nash,Nina went back with her ex-boyfriend,Acap confessed his feelings to this one girl. Oh Well,i'll be fine alone. :) I have Allah.