MasyaAllah Ya Allah

I was watching Chuck just now and SARA JUST STOLE MY LINE!! MY 'SHUT UP AND KISS ME' LINE. BOLEH KU SUE? :(

I still have the one dollar you gave me on our first date. Coffee Bean,remember? haha :)

16th today

I know you will. Goodluck :)

Sorry,i can't find your dad's kubur just now,but i'll find it myself next week. Remember this,once I found his kubur,im going to visit him every week. :)

Hey uncle,im sorry if i let you down. But i promise i'll take care of her for you. And Insyallah i'll visit your kubur every week. Al-Fatihah.

I left you before because i need my time alone,to save our relationship,to be better. But i guess,i came too soon. I never meant to do this,i'm sorry but you see,this time,i will never ever leave. Not til you're happy. And that's a promise.

Ya Allah,If You Want To Make My Life Miserable,At Least Keep My Head Up Straight. If You Want To Make My Life Miserable,At Least Put A Smile On Her Face. Ya Allah,Im Sorry,I Haven't Been The Best Of Your Servant. Ya Allah,Guide Me To Everywhere I Go,Every Path Im Going,I Know You're Near. Ya Allah,Make Her Happy. Ya Allah,Send Her A Better Guy. I Don't Want Anything For Me,Ya Allah. I Just Want Your Love.

Ya Allah,Make Her Happy,Make Her Happy,Make Her Happy.

New line,new number,new life. :)

I WANNA STAY IN THE PHILIPPINES FOREVER! DAPAT KAH? :'(

YA ALLAH!

If you like someone,DO NOT THINK OF SOMEONE WHO LEFT YOU. IF YOU HAVE A DREAM,CHASE IT! DON'T LET SOMEONE PUT YOU DOWN,PERIOD!

GOODLUCK BEAUTIFUL :)

I WANNA GO PHILIPPINES WITH MAMA THIS AUGUST,SPEND THE WHOLE RAMADAN AND RAYA THERE LIKE 2 YEARS AGO. AND DECEMBER TOO,SO I CAN GO CELEBRATE MY STUPID BIRTHDAY,WHERE NO ONE REMEMBER MY FUCKING BIRTH DATE. I JUST WANNA STAY THERE! FAR AWAY FROM EVERYONE,NOT TO FUCKING HURT PEOPLE'S LIFE ANYMORE,NOT GIVING ANY SHIT! I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE THERE!

MY LIFE IN BRUNEI SUCKS! I JUST WANNA GO FAR AWAY! FAR FAR AWAY FROM THIS CRUEL LIFE!

YA ALLAH SORRY,BUT PLEASE STOP EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW,IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR ALL OF THIS. :'(((((

PA,WHY DO HAVE TO LEAVE SO SOON PA? WHY YOU? WHY NOT ME?

You See,We Never Really Say Goodbye. And I Don't Wanna Be The First To Say It.

Gotta stop everything now. Sigh. Wish me luck,Bismillah.

Last Friday the khutbah was about Father's Day. We,as a Muslim cant celebrate Father's Day or any other occassions that are not related to Islam. We muslims celebrate Father's Day,Mother's Day not once a year,but every single day.

Well,im gonna celebrate Father's Day everyday from now. So,Pg Hj Yakub Bin Pg Hj Aliuddin,I Love You So Much. And as for you Uncle Abdul Manan bin Hj Othman,Thank you. I know both of you are in the safest place now,both of you are happy there. Amin

Al-Fatihah for both of you and for all the muslims who passed away. Semoga tergolong orang-orang yang beriman bersama Rasulullah. Amin

Thank you,Ya Allah. :)

Ya Allah,Please? :'(

One Day,InsyaALLAH.

DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME. IM NOT ALONE,ALLAH IS WITH ME.

GIVE HIM A CHANCE,YOU BOTH ARE BETTER TOGETHER. YOU LOVE HIM,HE LOVES YOU,HE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU,AND I KNOW WITHOUT HIM,YOU'RE NOT STRONG. HE MADE YOUR DREAMS CAME TRUE. GIVE HIM A CHANCE. WELL,IF HE FAILED AGAIN AND AGAIN,JUST GIVE HIM A CHANCE. STAY WITH HIM. HOLD ON TO HIM. BE HAPPY. BE TRUE. DON'T LIE TO YOUR BEAUTIFUL HEART AND MIND.

DON'T YOU DARE CARING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO LEFT YOU,THEY'RE NOT WORTH YOUR LIFE. DON'T TURN BACK. MOVE FORWARD.

Ya Allah,Make her happy. Make her happy. Make her happy. Send her a better guy,send her a better guy,PLEASE YA ALLAH,SEND HER A BETTER GUY,MAKE HER HAPPY. AMIN.

I cant promise you everything what you asked me to do,but I promise you uncle,even if we are not meant to be,i will always look after your daughter. I can promise you that. Al-Fatihah,keep smiling for her.

Jangan tinggal kan apa yang selalu kau buat malam-malam,istikharah. Sabar,sikit lagi tu. Istikharah lai,Istikharah. Minta arah Allah. And then he told me something that i will keep this for the rest of my life. Insyallah uncle,I won't let you down. Al-Fatihah.

YAAAAA ALLAH! :'(((((

Im sorry uncle,i cant make your beautiful angel happy anymore. :'( Im really sorry. But Insyallah,i'll promise you,i'll take care of her. Even when she's not mine. Allahuakhbar. :'(
And im sorry pa,your son is such a failure. :'( I miss you

Al-Fatihah for both of you,Pg Hj Yakub Bin Pg Hj Aliuddin and you Uncle Abdul Manan. Thank you for this Ya Allah. Thank you so much :'(

Ya Allah. :'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Just like him,i'll wait for you too.

Kejarlah impianmu,jika tidak kesampaian,maka,berusahalah untuk mendapatkannya. Dan jika usahamu itu gagal,maka,ketahuilah bahawa الله berada di sisimu dan dia mempunyai tempat untuk orang2 berusaha dan beriman.

Sometimes in life,in order to win,you have to lose things or someone you love. It will not make you weaker but it will make you a better person. And by that,by the time you are better,you will win things,not everything,but things that you've lost,Insyallah.

Ya Allah,jika keputusan ku itu benar maka,kau jadikan lah aku seorang hamba yang bersifat Rasulullah. Tunjukkanlah kepadanya seseorang yang dapat mencintainya. Dan jika keputusan ku itu salah,aku memohon kepada mu,aku redha dengan apa yang engkau putuskan kepadaku dan kepadanya. Amin.

Goodnight,Goodnight Nisa.

There's this time in life where you have to choose between the better or not. But before you choose,im going to back off cause i know im not good enough for you. I can tell that he loves you and he can make you happy. Give him a chance,just once. Everyone is happy to see both of you together.

I know I've been praying day and night just for you to come back,and Allah showed me everything. I have hope because I believe in Everything that Allah planned. But from now I'll be praying for someone better to be with you,someone who can make that beautiful smile on your face. Someone better. InsyaAllah.

No,im not giving up. but if that'll make you and people around you happy,i just have to leave,Lillahi Ta'ala.

Thank you,Ya Allah. Thank you for showing me her beautiful face everynight in my istikharah. Thank you for sending me one of you beautiful creations. Ya Allah,i just need one wish from you, i just want you to show her and let her know how much i really love her,just that. But please,send her someone better. Someone that can make her smile. She deserves to be happy.

Sorry,i don't have the courage to follow you back. I don't want to see the pictures of you and him. I swear to God,I'll hurt myself even more if i saw it.

I wish someone could take good care of her,that beautiful angel. Sigh. Someone better.

Its so good to see your 'hahaha' again. I miss that,i havent seen that for a long time. :) I miss you

Love is something that's not made for me.

Someone gave me this song. I still remember the things she told me,'if im far don't reach me,reach someone near.' 'You are the nicest guy that ive ever met and i want everyone to know that'. 'Don't you dare to say goodbye to someone you really love.'

3 years ago,she left,she went far away from here,UK. After a few months,she came back,but never to return UK again,forever. She left me,left her family,she left everyone,she left this world. We miss you,Rini. Al-Fatihah

On that day,i never let myself fall in love again until i met this beautiful angel,Siti Khairunnisa binti Abdul Manan. But then again,i failed. She found a better replacement. Boy if you really love her,go for her,don't let her down. She suffered alot. Both of you are better together. I can tell. Don't worry about me. Im better alone. I guess.

Just did my daily istikharah and...idk what to say anymore. Sigh,Ya Allah.

Spent a lovely,wonderful evening with the familia,thank you so much mama,mummy(yazid's mom),yazid,hjh mallj,yusri,nicky,najibah and nabilah. You guys are always there to support me,to support my success,to support everything. I love you guys so much. May Allah bless you guys with everything in life. Thank you Allah for hearing my doa,everyday,everynight. Insyallah,I wont stop achieving my dreams from now.

And to bapa,thank you so much for praying for me,i know you're in a better place now,but i can still hear you pray for me. I love you,I miss you so much. I know,you would be happy for me if you were here with us. And i know i let you down before,but i'll be a better son,i'll take care of mama for you,insyallah. Its my time to shine now pa,i'll prove to everyone that i will achieve my dreams,i'll prove it for you,for mama,for me and for our family. I'll make your dreams come true pa. I will. I'll make you proud. I miss you. Al-Fatihah

I hope you know.

Just did my Istikharah and Hajat,and again,saw her beautiful face. but its too late for everything,i guess. Sigh. I Miss you, كيروننيسا مانان

Philippines,Maybe?

Here's the thing,early April mama told me if inda dapat Business School,will be going to study in the Philippines. For 3 years. Well,imagine Brunei without me for 3 years,sunyi wah tu Brunei! hahaha naaaaaaaaaaat!

BOOOOM! OUT!

I AM OFFICIALLY A FAILURE!! MEEEEEEEEEH! So,Ering Kiah told me that the Business School results are out but then she cant find my name,so she called the Business School Admin or whoever you wanna call it,to find out why i didnt get through? And its funny how the guys answered,they said my grades are toooooo HIGH to go to that college,so they overlooked my grades. I KNOW,RIDICULOUS. Well at least slot me in on ND kah apakah,ani??? Ering Kiah was pissed on how they responded,she told them THE HIGHER THE GRADES THE BETTER,NO? BE CONSIDERATE!

So now people dont only judge the lower graders but the higer ones pun? CALII JUA EH!

But We'll see how it goes cause i know if i get this,my life will change,forever. I wont stop praying,cause Allah is with me and i know he'll answer all my prayers,Insyallah.

And I'll make you proud Pa,I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD,keep your doa for me,for mama,for us. Keep smiling,Heaven is a place for you. Amin. I Miss You